Desperate Homemaker

~Davina Gabrielle~

Denise — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 01:04:25 +0000

This blog is a hard one to write and share. I am already in tears. About a month ago my family was put to a test. My baby girl Davina had began feeling sick from her tummy on a Wednesday night. I had been in Corpus Christi visiting family and friends, and kind of just taking some time for myself. Mike called me to let me know that Davina was vomiting a then began running a fever. Well on Thursday my brother and sis-in-law went to Corpus for other reasons, so I hitched a ride back with them. We arrived back home at around three in the morning. Mike and I decided to take Davina to the emergency room immediately. They told us very quickly that they thought it might be her appendix. She did end up having surgery later that morning, but by then her appendix had ruptured. It was the scariest news ever for me. I felt like I was in a horrible nightmare as I listened to all that the surgeon was telling us about the damage that the ruptured appendix had caused. Then we were told we could see Davina in the Recovery room. My heart sunk and nothing could’ve prepared me for seeing my little girl the way I did. She had tubes in her mouth and nose, and she never responded to us. She opened her eyes and looked at us but didn’t react. That was so difficult, I can’t even put it in words. The next few days were very hard for her. Thankfully the pain was minimal because of the medication they were giving her. But she got better day after day. By the time we knew it, Davina was being her bossy little self. I wouldn’t want it any other way. I am so grateful to everyone that prayed for her, and I know she had tons of people holding her up in their prayers. Thank you to all of you. And the doctors and nurses were so awesome. They made this difficult situation as easy as they possibly could.

Again all I can say is Thank you to everyone for your prayers.

Til we meet again

On My Way

Denise — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 21:32:39 +0000

A few posts back I wrote about how I had some health issues that were being checked by my doctor. Well I had all the tests done, and they were horrible tests, but thank God I don’t have endometrial cancer. That was one major scare. I do however, have diabetes. That is equally scary, but more controllable. My doctor told me like it was, I have to lose a total of 85 lbs. to be healthy. He gave me one month to start making some changes and to lose 20 lbs. to begin my complete weight loss. He recommended the South Beach Diet, which is working pretty good. I also have to workout for about an hour five days a week. I cut out all dark drinks and breads. I’m trying to cut as many carbs as I possibly can. The hardest part for me has been feeling hungry at night because I’m eating my last meal earlier, then having only a smaller snack about an hour and half later. My family is being very supportive. Everyone is making a few changes in their diets. So on Friday morning I weighed myself and I had lost 6 pounds. I am so excited. I know that I can do this and control the way I eat. I definitely do not want to be sick and miss out on everything my very active daughters want to do. Please pray for me because I do need the strength to continue everyday. I will update as often as I can. Until we meet again!

What Makes Me Happy : )

Denise — Thu, 03 Apr 2008 02:33:21 +0000

There are times that I go and scroll through other peoples blogs, just to see what people are writing about. I think its real neat when people have themed blogs, like my brother Isaac that blogs about website stuff. Some people have different theme days like “Thankful Thursday” and “Wordless Wednesday”. But I don’t write enough blogs to keep up with that. So I thought I would just maybe make different lists occasionally about things that interest me. Today I chose things that make me happy. So read and enjoy.

God’s unending Love

My wonderful Husband

My beautiful daughters

My supportive and loving Family

My extended Family(you know who you are)

My Friends that I miss so much( OK its sad that I miss them, but they make me happy)

The Spurs

Reading James Patterson books

Writing

Sleeping

Spending time with my girls

Watching movies late at night with my hubby

Falling asleep in my hubby’s arms

My new car (just got it yesterday)

Anything chocolate

seeing my daughter’s happy faces

I think for now that covers alot. Of-course there are other things that make me happy, but overall these are the most important to me. It’s good to every now and then, just take the time to cherish all the important things in our lives. And you know they may not seem important to you, but to me they are. You don’t want to know me if I haven’t had chocolate. Until we meet again !

Just an Update : )

Denise — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 02:53:58 +0000

Well let me see it’s been quite a long time since I’ve written. It’s so funny because I read my last post and laughed because I guess I was feeling pretty stressed about finding a job. I still feel that way except that now Mike and I are actually wanting to start our own cleaning business. The idea didn’t just hit us overnight, we’ve always kind of wanted to do something like that. We really do want to work together. We already have business cards, we just need that first cleaning job. We have had a few set backs. Mainly because of me I guess. I went to the doctor recently and had a few issues come up. So I’m in limbo right now waiting to see what they are going to tell me. It’s like I’m almost holding breath. I have faith that I will be OK.

My book is still coming along. I really look forward to the times that I’m able to sit at the computer and write. I think I enjoy it so much because I can have a little “escape from reality” and just go somewhere else. As a parent you need a little escape every now and then, for me it’s when I write. I try to write poems also, I have a few saved for my daughters, that I hope they will treasure when they get older. You know I sometimes have those thoughts in my head that make me question my abilities or self-worth. I know it’s stupid, I know I shouldn’t do it, but I do. But those are the times that I can remind myself that I am a great writer. I don’t think I have to have published works to feel confident in the things that I write. It will be great though when my book does get published. I think for now I will leave my thoughts with that. Have a great Day!!!

Feeling Scared

Denise — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 18:33:26 +0000

Well here I am writing again after so long. It’s a new year, and a new year brings new beginnings. I have resolved to take off a few pounds. OK, who am I kidding? I need to take off alot of weight. I’m doing it a healthy way though. I’m watching my junk-food intake and drinking tons of water. We also moved the treadmill in the house, so it’s a constant reminder that I need to stay active. I’ve also started looking for a job! Ugh! To be quite honest, I’m pretty scared. I had just gotten so comfortable at my old job that it’s hard to step into something new. Also I don’t exactly know what I want to do. Some days I feel like teaching is the only thing I can be good at, but then I feel like I’d like to try something new. I don’t know. I really have to pray that God can lead me on this.

I’m still writing my book. I know I was suppose to have a transcript done, but I’ve kind of changed the flow of the book. I am really happy with the way it’s going now. I have had so much fun with character development. It’s really neat because with each character I can take a personality trait from someone in my life and add it to different characters in my book. So, family and friends don’t be mad when you read my book and see a little bit of yourself in a character. Just remember that you are an important part of my life.

So all in all things are coming along. The girls are back in school and loving it. I think I love it more!!! Please pray that God will continue to teach and direct my path.

Here’s to a great year!

Showing Some Love!!!!!!!!

Denise — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 07:44:34 +0000

I saw an Oprah show this week, and they talked about who you would spend a day with if you got the chance to have back someone that had already passed away. They also talked about how you should live your life letting those around you know what they mean to you. So here I am writing this for my daughters. I want them to know that they mean the world to me. I love them so much and just hope that I show them how much everyday.

To Olivia:

My sweet girl, you are my strength. When life was really hard for me, you and Skye, your little smile kept me going. It is because of you that I made some hard choices in life that have brought us to this wonderful place that we are at now. So for that I thank you. Olivia you are such a beautiful girl that has a wonderful heart. You are very caring and thoughtful, and I pray that you will always be that way. You have to learn to be an individual sweetie. You are always wanting to be part of the crowd. Learn to stand out, be different. I think in time you will. You are creative, and I think that is great. Be as creative as you can be. I believe in you, and I always will. Above all know that mommy loves you so much. I am so proud of you, and I will always be here for you no matter what comes our way.

To Skye:

My Skye, my beautiful Skye. Baby girl you are such a unique person. I will never forget hearing you cry when you were in my belly. You are an intelligent and wonderful little girl. You are so full of fire and life. I pray you learn to control that little anger bomb of yours. You have a unique perspective with art. I love to see your drawings and different ideas you have. I know you feel you have to fight for my attention, and I always explain to you to just calm down and know that I love you all just the same. Sometimes it can be hard to listen to all three of you, but I think I do a good job of giving each of you my full attention. Please just remember that you have to share mommy. Remember Skye that you are very unique and that God gave you some beautiful qualities that make you special and unlike anyone else. I love you always!

To Davina:

First let me say that you will always be my baby, no matter what. You gave mommy a scare coming into this world, and we are so happy that you are here with us. The first couple of years of your life were pretty difficult for you baby girl, but they sure did strenghten your lungs. Girl you can scream! You are my little rebel, but that has encouraged patience in me. Davina wherever you go your beautiful voice turns heads. Your voice is unique and I love it! You also have a smile that can light up a room. Don’t ever stop smiling. You are such a sweet and thoughtful little girl, and everyone notices that. Be sweet to your sisters because they will always be there for you. I love you very much!

Well those are my little gems of wisdom for my girls. You should take the time to let your loved ones know that you love them, but do it in a special way. Write a poem, or maybe write them a song. Send a special note telling them how you feel. Ladies write I love you to your husband in lipstick on the mirror. Men serve your wife breakfast in bed, and tell her you adore her. Make your children their favorite snack, and hug them tight. Whatever it is that shows you care do it!

My Hero

Denise — Mon, 05 Nov 2007 19:00:45 +0000

This weekend my husband and I will be celebrating our seventh year anniversary. Where does the time go? But then I feel like I’ve known Mike forever. I would like to share a few things about this wonderful man that is my husband. I tear up just thinking about all he has done for me.

I met Mike through my brothers Isaac and Jakob. He went to school with them, and began coming around the house. At this point in my life, I was struggling in a bad marriage. I was pregnant with my second child and I was always alone. Mike was at first a really good friend. Sometimes he even talked to me about my marriage and decisions I knew I had to make. It was hard for me to believe that someone like Mike could make sense of my problems. But he did, he always respected me. He always listened. I then filed for divorce. Not because of Mike, my marriage had been over for a long time. But soon after I began having feelings for Mike. I confessed my feelings to him, and he told me he needed time to pray and think about what he felt. It was a hard couple of months because we didn’t talk or see each other. Then one day he called me and told me that he felt in his heart that we were going to be together. I was already madly in love with this guy. He was so sweet and a great listener. It wasn’t easy being together. Eveyone around us didn’t think we should be together. Did I mention Mike was six years younger than me? Well that was only a minor detail. For his parents though that and the fact that I was pregnant and already had one child was a big deal. I understood that completely. Anyways things obviously worked out. We were married a year later. Mike went from graduating highschool, to a father of two, and taking care of us. He has always been a great husband and father. We had a daughter another year later. So that is our little family. We have three beautiful girls, and we’re so happy being together.

Mike is an amazing person. He makes me laugh everyday, even when I don’t feel like laughing. He was the first man to tell me how beautiful I was. Beyond that he made me feel beautiful. That was something that I had never felt before. He sometimes watches me sleep because he says he can’t take his eyes off me. I am so in love with this man. Can you tell? I don’t know where I would be without him. I’ve learned so many thing about myself because of him. Thank you Mike for all you do for me and our girls. I pray we have many more anniversaries to share together. I am AMAZED by you.

Happy Halloween

Denise — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 18:48:33 +0000

As a child my brothers and I were never allowed to participate in any Halloween activities. My dad was very strict in his beliefs. Of course we were taught that Halloween was from the DEVIL. If we ever celebrated it that meant we were worshipping the devil. So I was always bummed growing up because my friends would always ask what I was dressing up as and I would just say nothing. Now as an adult I have learned more about Halloween, and some people still feel it is a very evil time. There are alot of people that turn it into a grotesque and scary time. My family and I have found it to be a great time for us to just be together as a family. We do everything together. Picking our costumes is a family event, and it seems everyone has a vote. So tonight, go out and have a good time trick-or-treating with your kids. Tell them they look great, and that it’s OK to make believe they are someone else today. Make sure you check all the candy, and have lots of fun.

My Poems. My Feelings

Denise — Mon, 22 Oct 2007 17:12:07 +0000

I thought I would share a few of my poems that I have written over the years. I would love any feedback that anyone would like to give. I am actually realizing my lifelong dream of writing a book right now. I don’t claim to be great, but I do feel its a God-given gift that I have to put to work. Enjoy!

MIRROR, MIRROR

Mirror, mirror on the wall, why do you show no truth at all?

People look into your eyes to see the beauty that in truth you do disguise.

You make them see the things that are wrong. The scar, the wrinkle, the nose is too long.

How can they trust you when you bring them such demise?

Why can’t they understand all you do is hypnotize, You hide their beauty which they possess inside.

You turn their smiles into deep, dark skies and twist their sparkle into empty screams and sighs.

Please mirror, mirror on the wall stop telling all your lies.

EYES OF A CHILD

Through the eyes of a child

I see peace and tranquility

There is hope and love

no hate and immorality

The skies are so blue

The sun shines so bright

Gazing at the beautiful wonders

For which God made for my delight!

Stop Pretending!

Denise — Fri, 12 Oct 2007 18:46:21 +0000

So, I decided today that I needed to write a blog because I’ve had so many things lately that I want to write about. But now that I’m here writing I am kind of in a blur. There are so many things affecting my life right now it’s hard to decide which is more important. I guess they all have some sort of precedence to me personally. I think to sum up a couple of different things that have happened I can say this. Why do people pretend to be something that they are not? I was actually accused of this recently, and I took much offense to that comment. I know that I have accepted Christ as my Lord and Saviour. I know where I am going when I die, but I have never pretended to be some sort of “Saint”. I make mistakes like anyone else. I have fallen time and time again, but I get up knowing that God has helped me through. I am not one of those people who will ask if you need help, and then take you being in need as a weakness on your part. To me that is so ridiculous. Why pretend people? Why can’t you just be real? Maybe it’s because you really don’t know who you are. You look, act, talk, and fake everything just to be like everyone else. It really is disgusting. I use to go to a church where people were like that. You couldn’t tell anyone apart. They looked so alike because they were all fake. I think at one point I almost fell into the same trap. But you know God opened my eyes, and I believe he’s clearing the cloud for alot of people. I guess all I’m trying to say is be who you are. Be real. And if being real is someone you don’t like, then work on changing that.